As often as I recall all the decisions that I wish I would have made differently in my past, is as often as I realize that I made those decisions because I took certain things for granted. I assumed that familywould always be there for me. I cast off the words and wisdom from certain mentors in my life as superficial and "just what an adult might tell any young person".
I also took for granted that life is delicate, and should be treated with care. A diminished value of these things propelled to make some truly horrible decisions regarding the well being of myself and others. from drugs to guns to theft and murder, I cut a path full of pain with my life through the lives of others. God certainly never means for any person at any time to walk paths such as that, and today, even as I type these words, I am filled with comfort and awe that God saw fit to take ashes and turn it to beauty. That is what my lie was as I walked into Guilford County jail January 2019. Ashes.But nothing, and I do mean nothing, is beyond the providence of God. He takes evil things, and turns them for good. He takes the lesser things, and makes them greater. He makes the weak strong and helps the unloved encounter real love. My advice is to let God make beautiful art with your life. He is the greatest painter, sculptor, and architect imaginable. If you let him, he will show you why.
With love,
Spencer Pinekenstein